Tonight I had Esther epiphany if you will...
Tonight we had a volunteer meeting and we talked about Esther 4 when Mordecai requests Esther's help to intercede on behalf of the Jewish people. At first Esther is unaware of what is going on. After she understood, she says that she has not been called to the King and therefore cannot go intercede for her people.
When Mordecai hears she will not go he says, "Don't think for a moment that because you're in the palace you will escape when all other Jews are killed. If you keep quiet as a time like this, deliverance and relief will arise from some other place, but you and your relatives will die. Who knows if perhaps you were made queen for just such a time as this?"
Wow. This really hit me.Though Esther was in the palace and queen, she still had a choice. She still had a choice to go after what the Lord had called her to do. Though we are in the "palace" with the Lord and his people, we still have a choice as well. Like Mordecai said "deliverance and relief will arise from some other place". The Lord can still make His will happen without us, however we are losing an incredible blessing in the process. But as Mordecai points out, Esther was "made queen for just a time as this".
That Lord had intrically designed and knitted together Esther's life so that she could take this calling was so beautiful to me. Everything had planned out perfectly at this specific time so that Esther could rise to the Lord's call, and the Lord's glory was magnified through it.
Esther's response to the matter was this, "I will go in to see the king. If I must die. I must die".
I love her confidence in the Lord and her call in this moment. She goes in full force, knowing that her faith lies not in herself but in the Lord. I want to be Esther-minded, going after my God-ordained passion full force. I know He can use someone else to fulfill His will, but I don't want to miss my call. I don't want to regret. He is concerned with details. He has knitted together my life specifcally for something, for His glory. I don't wan to "keep quiet" at such a time as that. That is so exciting to me, and I praise Him in advance for what He is doing and will do! How beautiful is our God of details, intricately weaving together our lives for the ultimate story of His glory.